Exams are coming up and all I have in my brain are unnecessary thoughts

There are four days until my Physics 12 Exam (on Monday) and about a week and 2 days until my Calculus Exam (on Thursday).

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I'm sleep deprived and sick with a nasty cold that is causing me headaches and all I want to do is sleep because I feel like I'm a walking drunk person. Sorry for the excuses, and I'm sorry for complanin'. But at least I don't feel ashamed of doing badly anymore.

I'm still contemplating like what to do after highschool. After university. And I'm still very confused. I look at my peers and I'm slightly jealous that they are going into careers which will bring them money and probably success because it's what they've always dreamed of. I know it's wrong to go into a career just for the money, because 30 years down the road, I'll look back on what I've been doing with my life, wondering if I've been living the life I've always wanted to live. The answer to that question probably isn't all that complicated. I probably need to test out a few careers (via volunteer positions and entry level jobs) to find my fit.

"Isn't it funny how day by day nothing changes, but when you look back, everything is different.." - C.S. Lewis

C.S. Lewis hits right on the spot and is a reminder of how I feel. All I know now is that I need to get a 75% final average in Calculus and Physics 12 and my other course, Economics 12, don't get priority beyond those. I know it's important to be asking myself the important questions, and finding the answers, but at times like these when I need to focus and get a good mark, I need to place those questions in the backseat and start reviewing for my exams.

Peace out. And thank you so dearly for your patience. Good luck to you and cheers to the future c: