I've resigned myself to go to sleep, since it's 10:30 p.m. and I can't smash in any more Calculus in my head tonight. I'd end up stressing myself out and I won't think clearly tomorrow. There's a feeling of doom looming over my head. I'm not happy at all. Neither am I sad. I'm a bit frustrated that I didn't do more, but there's so much I can do between now and tomorrow.
My plan is to wake up at about 5:45 am latest and read the textbook examples until I understand the gimmick of 6 chapters that I need to understand. It's probably going to take me 2 hours to understand them, but I don't think I should consider time right now. I only have to focus on understanding the main problems in this unit.
My peers at school are generally pessimistic about this test. Well, some of my friends don't care anymore and there are people who are failing tests and quizzes. In this type of atmosphere, it's difficult for me to scrounge up the courage to do well. I'm thinking about tiny things which are bothering me right now and it's not helping my mood to focus on Calculus. Everything is dwarfed by how important Calculus is right now. Yet, I am human and I need my sleep to focus. I have never depended on coffee for energy on tests and exams and I don't think it's wise for me to start. I'm going to have to wake up early and while warmly bundled up in my blankets, I will quietly study my textbook under the bright morning sunshine.
The world is still running whether I do well on this test or not. So, I guess nothing major will happen if I do poorly. For now, I just need a 75%.
Time to sleep, dream and focus on Calculus in the morning. Good night lovely readers.
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