I'm feeling spontaneous today - and trust me because I know myself, this doesn't mean anything good. Why? I'm the type of person who needs rules. I need to take chronological steps in order to achieve something and when I don't do that (when I just "wing - it") it only fuels my habit to always "wing - it". This is why I inherently don't feel bad when I see a failing or barely passing mark because I know that since I had no idea what was going on anyways, this was what I deserved.
But, if grades are a reflection of how I just "winged - it", what about the classmates who also achieved the same passing grade as me, but they had worked way harder than I did, understood way more than I ever would have and just accredited that low mark due to silly mistakes? What do grades really mean then?
I ask this because I got back my last Physics test today on Wave Relativity & Relative and Quantum Mechanics. I just passed overall. I was a couple points away from failing (as in 50%). My friend beside me achieved the same grade, yet she did way more practice problems than I did (I did close to none) and she understood all the concepts (I am not being humble when I say that I walked into that test knowing close to nothing). What then does a grade mean? When we got back our test mark, she started to cry and get upset because she thought that her effort would raise her mark. Yet her mark did not increase.
I'm concluding here that the meaning of a grade depends on case by case basis. The education system bases itself so much on a performance based system through achievement of high grades. Yet, in the "real" world, what is the meaning of grades being beyond a number? Yes, you can develop a good work ethic and you will feel good about studying hard and studying smart. But when you get that score on a test, in a course, on your transcript, beyond allowing you to put your foot into the door for other institutions such as Grad, Pharmacy, Med Schools, etc, if you went through all that just to say "HASTA LA VISTA BABY, SCHOOL IS NOW WRECKED. PEACE" just to jump onto the next best train, did the grading system allow you to grow as a person? You may have made it to post-graduate school, but having good grades reinforces the institutional education system, so where are YOU in all of it? What more are grades beyond being a number - because you are not your grades and you are not a number.
I think it's important to ask these big questions. It's easy to go along the flow and accept that society needs to churn us out into one-stop-shop ready workers, but if you're feeling like the grading system is failing you, maybe you need to switch into another subject. Or give the subject another shot. A better shot. Whichever action you choose to do, I believe it's necessary to consciously choose for yourself. Don't let the education system choose for you, because if you lived your life believing all you needed were good grades to provide you food, shelter and enough to start a family, you're not digging deep enough into your own needs and what makes you tick.
Really, it's all about balance. Drowning yourself under the impression that grades will save you from all the bad things in life is only going to put you in more misery. Don't drown. Reach out for a mentor. Do your research.
I wish I could put some statistics here to back up my points, but what I have is only intuition and experience. I believe that actions speak louder than words, so you can choose to take my words for face value and/or try it out yourself and actually do something about how you learn and what you feel towards your education.
As always, thank you for reading.